So, I was sitting with Colin in the infusion room during his third Avastin treatment when this guy asked me where I had gotten my button. He was sitting one chair to the left of Colin with his daughter, receiving his own Avstin treatment.
He was referring to this button. I got in Duke’s Brain Tumor waiting room (I can’t remember the actual name of the place)
They were free.
I told him where and when I got it. He said he liked it, cause it was honest.
Colin and I had been talking earlier about the button and how it was different from the majority of “cancer awareness” logos, most of which involve a dove, or a dove carrying a heart, or a dove carrying a colored ribbon.
I assume the dove is supposed to be calming. Soothing. A symbol of peace.
And that doesn’t sit right with Colin. “To hell with being peaceful. Thats too close to rest in peace, go in peace, or has gone to a peaceful place. “F” That!”…I’m paraphrasing.
Just as Colin was finishing his treatment, I gave the dude the pin off my jacket.
He laughed and said that he had been trying to convince his daughter to take it from me.
He pinned it to his shirt and something strange happened.
He sat taller. He smiled and raised his chin a bit higher. Squared up in his seat. He looked confident, despite the fact that he was diagnosed “terminal.” And I realized why.
People fight. We’ve been doing it for thousands of years. For one reason or another, like it or not, good or bad, we fight. And if you take a look at our movies and music you realize, we like it:) A lot of times its horrible, but part of what makes fighting fun, is immature spiteful pettiness.
Stay with me…
It’s usually not enough just to kick some kids ass on the playground. It always feels better if you have an audience. And when you knock him down, you stand over him and call him a name too. Then you and everyone else in school gossips about it until the kid stops coming to school. Than you spread rumors about him on my-space. Key his car if he has one. Date his sister, too.
But you can’t do that to cancer. Its hard to be spiteful and petty.
You can give it some physical damage. Trade blows, so to speak. But, mostly its faceless, or since it’s a part of you it has your face. It doesn’t have a my-space. You are its car. And your other organs are it’s sisters. And most of your audience has sad faces.
Which leaves name calling and foul language.
(I censored it, dad!)
Tried and true methods. We like it. It works.
Makes you feel just a bit more power. Its a lot better than doves. Unless, they were doves with lazer beams.
That would be hot.
-Eric
Tags: awareness, positive thinking
Awareness Bracelet: "Save Colin – Terminate the Tumor!"
